how do you even pre-empt it?
it hits you with a wham, takes you unawares. you stagger under the weight of it, the sheer force of it, and let it weigh heavily on your heart. how should i handle it, i wonder. do i even need to? it comes and goes, at the most unexpected times. taking you by surprise, so that you have no idea how to avoid or prevent from happening.
brain focusing on all the wrong things. oh, just let it be and concentrate, damn it. ugh.
